Sunday, December 25, 2011

Indispensible.

I realised why I’m a type 2. It’s not because im naturally helpful. Maybe I am on the outside, or half of me inside is. It’s more because I’m selfish. So utterly selfish by nature. But the other half of me which is my moral compass which is just as strong won’t allow my selfishness to bleed through too much. And it helps in suppressing my selfishness. To compensate, I have to keep helping people to satiate that moral compass. So its like a never-ending cycle. Selfish thoughts and intentions >> moral compass kicks in >> having to help others out. Maybe?


Average 2/1 combines oneish judgment with twoish people-pleasing. 2/1s are tighter and more rigid than 2/3s, but less exacting than 1/2s.
Very true. Compared to mak, i'm waaay less judgemental and "preachy".

They regulate their behavior carefully, in order to stay polite and proper.
I've always felt like that. Step one, examine environment. Then put on an appropriate mask. I remember i'm so aware of these sort of things especially in cedar in guides especially when dealing with seniors and protocol. Like sit up straight, eye contact, etc.

Overall, they want to put on a happy face, but because of repressed anger (from the one-wing) and repressed personal needs (from the two), their happy face is sometimes pinched with tension.
YES omg spot on. Especially days when im having horrible mood swings. And ppl smile and go "hi amirah!!" and my smile would look sooo pathetic and forced. And it takes so much effort just to paste that half-smile there.

They are less interested in appearing sexy and glamorous than 2/3, and they are more interested in becoming indispensible than 1/2.
Yes. That's exactly it. IT. My true aim in life that i would never admit to anyone. I want to be indispensible.

Healthy 2/1s almost always find that their true calling involves helping others grow, often children. They become able to help themselves as wisely and lovingly as they help others.
Yes. I remember the feeling of teaching Ilhan and he actually learning things that I taught. Remember UN dream? the joys of teaching :) And doing social work. defo my life path.

They enjoy watching people find their own calling, accepting the delightful differences among us.
Yes, that's partly why i was so interested in the enneagram. Because of how different people are, yet so similar and predictable in motives. That diversity and the richness of the human soul and mind is just..marvellous. (god is great). And all these differences teaches me acceptance.

Sevenish joy from one's integration combines with fourish depth and empathy from the integration of two. The result is tolerant, patient celebration of growth and diversity.
defo what i wanna end up like :) wouldn't have it any other way!

Physical appearance

Most 2/1s prefer to dress conservatively, but stylishly.
Yes. tudung = conservative
Neatness is important.
Hmm questionable at first? Im not exactly known for being neat. But when i think about it. My need for my tudung or hair to be just right and my freak out when my hair's in a mess? yep okay.
Nothing too bold or outrageous. Elegance and poise, quietly distinctive with maybe a sparkle of jewelry or a colorful tie.
Spot on. Jackpot. It's something i didnt consciously realise but now i do notice that its true. Like how i bought that mustard skirt and wear with all black? or the purple cotton on top? yup! i realise its true fr Ale also. Like her prom dress was all black and then a red belt. thot that was great hands down. Plus the green shoes i saw?

Like 1/2, they hold themselves carefully erect, and sometimes seem to be looking down their nose. They might have a tendency to be a little more formal than is really necessary.

Err, maybe the rigidity and nervousness may be true. But i reeeally dont think i look down my nose. (like obama??)



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